We are the generation of worriers.

I'm unsure as to where this blog post is going to go so bear with me.

I'm thinking maybe I should start doing a weekly thing so I keep up to date with this blog. However I do have exams that I need to revise for and, sorry, but they must come first (as much as I hate to admit that). If I were to do a weekly thing I would have no idea what I could that is 'original'. As I was revising today I was listening to Radio 6 and this caller said how he was in his final year of university, doing music journalism, and he couldn't find a job. Then Steve Lamacq gave some advice that you need to find your own 'thing'. You know, like what makes you original. But I've come to realise that originality is getting harder to find. Technology has meant that literally every aspect of anything has been talked about. As much as I love that technology is always rapidly changing, sometimes I just can't keep up and then I think we begin to lose ourselves. 

I know this sounds selfish, but I do feel sorry for our generation. Making a stand used to be so...rare before, but now it seems that it makes no difference. Both my parents are teachers and we've been on so many marches in our time, but none of them seem to make a difference. Gove is still ruining education and it's not as if Ed Milliband has said anything against him before. I think something original needs to happen. That doesn't mean violence or whatever, just something that gets our voices heard. 

I would have said, that because of the vast amount of technology we have now it must have become easier. But think about the whole getting 'Ding-Dong The Witch Is Dead' to number one for Margaret Thatcher's death. The people of the UK spoke and they wanted that as their number one, however, this was completely dismissed and we only heard five seconds of it. I've begun to realise that you have no voice if you're not important in some way. And by important I mean part of the Upper Class. Knowing what you want to do in life. Knowing that you'll go to a public school. Knowing you'll go to Oxbridge. I am constantly losing faith in what I will become and who I'm going to be. It's become so hard.

I also think it's sad that I've started to think this way. I'm a seventeen year old girl. I should have a wide amount of possibilities before me but I know that's not the case. Maybe it's from living in a very realistic household. Or maybe it's from actually taking into consideration what is happening in the world. Whatever it is, I feel that I know the truth and I feel deflated about it. I miss being a little kid without any cares. Without the constant worry that I should be revising "10 hours a day" (okay, maybe that's an exaggeration) for my exams. Or without the worry of University fees. 

I've come to the conclusion that we are the generation of worriers. We have a lot to worry about, no matter how much we try to not show it. We are. Think of this what you will.

Mabel x